Relating a bit with Moses

Moses was a pretty ordinary dude, if you can get past the fact he led an entire nation on a mass exodus out of one country and into another.

But, even then, he couldn't do it on his own. In my Bible reading today, I found an instance where Moses was probably on his knees praying like crazy. In his words, I hear what sounds like frustration, angst, and exhaustion over doing the Lord's work. It's not that he's on the verge of giving up, it's just that the Israelites are driving him mad.

He says to God, "You've been telling me over and over again to lead these people, but you haven't told me who's going to do it with me. I can't work like this dog, I need help. You said you know me by name, and you've found favor with me, but God, I'm lost. Teach me how to do the job, and do it right. I want to know how you work, what to expect, who you are. Remember, these people are your homies."

God answered, "I'm right here wit ya dawg, I've got yo back."

Moses, perhaps because of something that happened that day or whatever, he begs God not to leave him, "If you decide not to come with, don't tell us to go on, deal? I don't know if you've noticed, but when you're not around God, we aint got no street cred."

I think God smiled when he replied, "You got it. I know who ya are and where ya come from, and I'm chill wit it."

I am somewhat humbled and amazed. For a while now, I've been picking up vibes of God planning to use me for something in the lives of other Christians, perhaps in a leadership role. I don't know that it was a traditional leadership role, involving teaching a Sunday School class or whatever, but maybe more of a lead-by-example thing. It's like if I can live my life humbly and lovingly, maybe I will encourage others to do the same.

Of course, I've been trying to do that, and God's been with me pretty much since I began trying, but who says I'm that observant?

This semester, I asked myself a lot who would be there to lead by loving with me? I wanted someone whose energy I could feed off of, while in turn feeding them. In addition, I wanted to be able to grow spiritually alongside and as a result of whoever God placed in my life.

What better companion is there than the Holy Spirit?

Let me be the first to admit that when I'm trying to live life without God, I'm a retard.

But, God still answers my prayers, even during my retarded moments. God has shown me both the partner I need, and the Christian support structure I was fumbling for.

God is amazing.